I am to apologize to Her because:
"Mend ties, the community is too small to have to have anger and resentment."
Because its not just her, but Her Dom too.
So, again, why do I have to apologize? She did nothing wrong? Where’s Her apology?
Why is the victim apologizing for standing up for herself? Am I supposed to apologize for stating the truth too? Would Sir like to write and send it for me?
I have anger and resentment that:
*I have to be the one to apologize first.
*she hasn’t even acknowledged what I wrote, let alone given feedback if she agrees or disagrees.
*he is allowing her to manipulate him and thereby manipulate me.
*Her Dom hasn’t addressed this to my knowledge.
*Sir doesn’t hear me.
*I can’t communicate with Sir anymore.
*I have to bottle everything since I have no one to talk to about this.
*I keep questioning/doubting myself and my instincts.
*Sir risked our relationship for approximately 3 hours a week of texts, phone calls and visits with her.
*she was able to receive the discipline I had requested.
*Sir said “I want you present with me” and then went behind my back.
*I was the last person to try his new caveman flogger
*there isn’t a single toy that Sir has that is exclusively used on me
*Sir kept saying the new relationship was for both of us but never included me.
*that your Dom didn’t encourage you to get your own confirmation that this was okay.
*that my Sir kept me in the dark
*that I feel my needs take precedents over yours
*that I will not ignore my feelings so everything can be rose-tinted perfection in your world.
*For thinking you were an adult and could handle the truth
*For thinking you would try to see things from my perspective
*For expecting you to give me time to accept what you two had done
*For expecting you to give me time to mend my relationship
*For expecting you to apologize